Do Narcissists Care If You Move On? - Magnet Of Success

I am in the ending stage or hope to be with a women i have been with for 2 going on 3 years, when things are good they are really good, we laugh and have fun, we go on dates and there is alot of fun and happiness, the problem is the problems and the gaslighting in them.. no matter what has happened and how wrong she has ever been in anything she has done, and beleive me she has been wrong, but even more than being wrong because we are all human and make mistakes.. i dont care about the mistakes i care about being seen through them, it hasnt mattered the actual mistakes, what matters to me is caring that my feelings have been hurt, appologizing for the actual action but more than anything saying im sorry that i hurt you.. no matter what she has never said sorry for a single thing and all that me saying i am hurt and just want an apology has done is turn into somehow me apologizing and working harder to try and be better for her, for whatever reasons she has given me during these fights ( i am young and have been blind, and more than anything hopeful) she has gaslighted me and made everyhting my fault with all of the accountability on my shoulders.. I do not know where the lines blur and i feel if i stay any longer to truly understand i will lose myself, so i just want to say this.. NPD is not something of a bully im the best force.. its routed in a complete lack of self confidence.. and it is a mental defense, even if she loves me and she does, her ego is fragile and any attack on her ego, if not defended in the way that narcs do, could cripple her self identity or probably would. Narcs do hurt us, but it is important to realize it is because they are also hurting in their self esteem more than we can realize or understand and that they mentally lack the ability to emphasize like me and you do.. I need to leave and i suggest you do to.. but dont leave hating this person, understand it comes from a place of deep deep lack of beleif in self and esteem.. you can have compassion and understand that it was never personal, but just a system developed in their mind for self protection and self preservation of ego.. you can understand them, and know they cant control it.. you can love them.. but you still need to leave.