I Hate Myself - A Poem By Figg - All Poetry

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2 Add to listFigg Followon Jan 27 2008 09:06 PM PSTI Hate MyselfI hate myself. Everyday is a struggle Just to look into the mirror. All I want, All I crave, Is to beat my fist against the panes of glass Until my reflection is shattered. I don't want to have to look at myself. I don't want to face the demons I'm struggling with. I hate myself. Everyday is a struggle To keep from setting that smooth blade into my skin. All I want, All I crave, Is to tear myself apart from the outside, Destroy everything in me that I loathe. I don't want this ache in my veins. I don't want to be stuck inside myself anymore. I hate myself. Everyday is a struggle, Knowing I'm damaged and alone. All I want, All I crave, Is to fall away from myself, Kill everything I hate so much about myself. I don't want to feel so twisted, so unwanted. I don't want to stay locked in these shadows, locked in this pain. I hate myself. I am scared and alone. Will anyone get close to me? I am shamed, damaged. I want so much for you to know. I can't take back what's been taken from me, Chilled to the bone, I don't know how to heal myself. I need your help, some love, to save me. It's painful, And I am damaged beyond repair. My reflection has become something I can't recognize; I want to hide from myself. I want that blade so deep that it cuts out the pain. I want to escape. I hate myself. Everyday is a struggle, But I must go on. All I want, All I crave, Is the mask I keep on hiding behind to be the truth, To have something whole, someone to bury the shattered piece of myself into. I don't want to be so frightened, so helpless. I don't want to hate myself so passionately. I hate myself, But I want so desperately not to. I hate myself. I see a different face than everyone else; I see that ruined self beneath an imperfect surface. I hate myself. I want you to know. I hate myself. I want you to save me. I hate myself. But I can't tell you. I hate myself. You can't save me. I hate myself, And I'll always hate myself."i'm such a mess, i wonder how i look through your eyes" © on Jan 27 2008 09:06 PM PST, Nichole Walborn personal • thoughts • sad • dark • pain • life • angst • depression • escape Read more → Like (3) 2 Nicely done Thank you Fantastic Like (3) Likes: Bigibucks, Forgive Forget, Yeopoi Older commentsYeopoi - I do really also hate myself, there's no hope. Nicely done on Dec 27 2024 04:18 PM PST

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Forgive Forget - I feel ashamed to say this But this is so relateable everyday. (Sorry for ad) Please go and read my poems all of them are depressing Great on Apr 19 2022 08:15 AM PST

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Willcrook - Very dark and upsetting, hope your ok on Jan 27 2008 10:32 PM PST

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i'm such a mess, i wonder how i look through your eyes.18yr 12Give me Everything you've Got14yr 396

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