Guys Disgust Me... - Asexual Musings And Rantings

(just a min-rant here lol)

No offense to guys out there but I don't understand why I should be attracted to them...On the one hand I want to date a guy and yet I do not find them physically appealing...Yet I seem to be more romatically inclined towards men...Girls do nothing for me although I have a strong aethistic appreciation for them...I can stare at a pretty girl for hours and admire them but I don't really think I want to be in a relationship with one...I definetely don't desire to do anything physical with a girl...Of course like many of you I used to think I was gay or at least bi because I didn't find guys attractive besides a few squishes now and then...And yet the only way I find girls attractive is in the artistic appreciation sense...

Guys I do not find aethistically pleasing AT ALL...well except for my crush sorta I think he is cute ;)

In general I just don't find the male form attractive...Male gentialia is just well gross...actually gentilia is ugly both male and female lol...Just the whole male body is sorta repulsive to me!!! And what is with a guys scent...Does anyone else get sick by the smell of a guy? I mean most guys don't bother me lol if I am not getting up close and personal with them but if they are all sweaty it literally makes me sick to my stomach...Either that or they are wearing wayyyyyy to much cologne(guys quit using so much plz for the love of god!) very gross smelling stuff I might add...It weird though because their is one guys scent I don't mind my crush always smells amazing to me...even when hes sorta sweaty its very much odd...

If I find a guy sorta attractive(to me personally I can look at a guy and see why others might find them attractive but not personally find them attractive or be attracted to them) its usually based on whether I think they are cuddly ;) Even then its just sorta friendship/platonic thing...Basically my attractions to people are totally messed up I would like to find someone that everything comes together for!

Just a re-cap

Females -- strong aethistic attraction, slight physical attraction, no romantic attraction or very slight... some platonic/frienship feelings

Males -- no aethistic attraction, physically unappealing(except for my weird crush), some romantic attraction(although rare) yet stronger friendship/platonic attraction...

(and of course no sexual attraction to either!)

No wonder I can't meet anyone I want to date!